A Farewell to Future Children

Sometimes late at night after we've made love I stare into the darkness and listen to the sound of you breathing. I see the glow in our neighbor's houses flickering on the hillside, dancing in the moonlight. I feel the steady rise and fall of your body beside me and I am so filled up with this joy that radiates from my core. In these silent moments I think about the way our paths ran right into each other, the almost cosmic way we met so many days ago now. I never could have imagined that my life would turn out this way. I never knew I could love someone else's babies so much. Or that I would become a part of your family. In the darkness of night I bask in the glow of this life that I'm living. I have never been happier.