A very long haitus indeed. I stopped writing for a long time and it felt very sad. And then over Christmas vacation I found myself awake one night in a condo in Mammoth and my mind was filled with words I wanted to put to paper. But the computer wasn't nearby. And we had no Internet access. And I truly believed that if I just kept repeating the three or four sentences that was inspiring me that I could say them out loud when I finally got to a computer and it all would come rushing back. But then that didn't happen. And the next time I found myself sitting before screen and keys there was nothing to say.
For awhile over the last year I have felt inhibited in what I wanted to say. I was being watched, read, judged by someone who doesn't like me, who likely never will. One of the things I always loved about writing was the cathartic nature of being honest. Of pouring my soul right onto the page. But the joy I derived from being authentic was suddenly shadowed by my fear that my words and the things I was sharing would somehow be used against me in very personal, hurtful ways. After awhile the words stopped coming. I couldn't write.
With the new year I decided the only way to reclaim this little space of literary freedom would be to limit the people who can read it. I've made my blog private. To keep the mean people away :-) I hope you'll still read. I love having you here.
xoxo
Meg
For awhile over the last year I have felt inhibited in what I wanted to say. I was being watched, read, judged by someone who doesn't like me, who likely never will. One of the things I always loved about writing was the cathartic nature of being honest. Of pouring my soul right onto the page. But the joy I derived from being authentic was suddenly shadowed by my fear that my words and the things I was sharing would somehow be used against me in very personal, hurtful ways. After awhile the words stopped coming. I couldn't write.
With the new year I decided the only way to reclaim this little space of literary freedom would be to limit the people who can read it. I've made my blog private. To keep the mean people away :-) I hope you'll still read. I love having you here.
xoxo
Meg
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